Jonese's Blog

You know some news you just don't blog, but in this case I'm making an exception. I've been and am being pretty transparent to all of you. Trying to put myself out there. Expose to you, who I really am.

So it's only fair that you my loyal reader be the first to hear about this news. I honestly didn't believe it either but it's true.

I'm going to be a father.....

I know, I know. You're probably wonder how this can happen. I mean I did say I wasn't going to have sex till I got married? So how can this be, I haven't even talked about any special ladies in my life.

Well truth be known, I have no idea who the mother is.

Yea that's right, I'm not going to be a father in 9 months but at some point in the future I will be. It actually hit me the other day as I was reading this blog post. But really it started while following this horrible influence of a man, did you detect the sarcasm, cause it was thick.

So there I am at work, flipping through my Google Reader and I see the post about the Redneck Sled. I see Pete with his kids, I see Carlos with his kids, John with his and the list goes on and on. Suddenly I get giddy, like a little freaking school girl, as a thought hits my mind, goes straight pass logic and right to my heart. What was the thought?

I CAN NOT WAIT TO BE A FATHER!

After the giddiness subsided, and it actually took a bit of time to calm myself down, I couldn't help but think "Where the H - E - Double Hockey Sticks did that come from?" I mean I'm at work, one hand deep in code, the other tickling the underside of a SQL server and part of my brain is watching some guy drag his kids around the front yard on 1/2 inch of snow with his ATV. And I come up with "I can not wait to be a father" out of nowhere.

Now this isn't one of those moments where I immediately think, oh crap I can't do that by myself. I need to find a woman quick, get married and have me some babies! (Yes mom I know that would make you very happy but be patient please). No this was more of a feeling of anticipation, fore shadowing, maybe even a prophetic premonition, who knows really.

So yea the idea of being a father to me is awesome. I can't wait to be the dad who's riding a scooter through his living room, Taking Road Trips, Making Pancakes, and "discussing" the finer points of opposite sex phone calls.

I want all this and more....

I don't want to just get married.

I don't want to just be Mr. and Mrs. Jones.

I don't want to be someones spouse.

I want to be a father, a husband, a servant to my God and my wife.

Ephesians 5:25 - Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her.

1 John 3:18 - Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.